Don G. Park

i am soooo tired. im trying to get up at 7:30am these days. without 9 hours of sleep to back that up, it makes for a long tired day.

wow its early. nothing to do but write in my livejournal. i went on a date last week with a woman in my building. She is 18 years old and lives on the 5th floor. I had a good time. I would like to go out with her again but something is wrong. She cancelled our second date and didnt call me this weekend. I had dinner at dad&elaine's last night. that was good. now that i have my guitar back, i have been playing it. i am looking forward to the next portland guitar society meeting. i used to really enjoy going to those meetings. Its funny how I can be in a groove of enjoying something, like going to PGS meetings, and then something will happen and Ill get out of the groove. Then it wont ever occur to me to just get back into the groove. My birkenstocks were like that. For years after i graduated I would wear my birks religiously. I loved them. Then one day I lost a pair. It never occurred to me to get another pair. That sounds like a simple notion. Yet it was profound when last year or so I thought 'I really could use another pair of birkenstocks.' Now I have a new pair and they are great. Just like my old pair. Why didnt I do that earlier? I dont know. I just didnt think of it. Im talking about the feeling of concerted effort. The idea of willpower. According to Anthony Robbins, it is something that should be developed. Build your 'decision making muscles' as he would say. There are ideas in buddhism that seem to say the opposite thing. Desire is the root of all suffering. Achievement, or any change, is violence against the self. Modern interpretations of that idea put it through heavy interpretation. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. It is a really high priority to find a significant other. Im mostly going to work everyday and staying in at night and expecting to meet someone.

i couldnt get to sleep before 1am if my life depended on it :(. i really want to get up earlier but it just aint happening. i am enjoying the stuff im reading about investing. Most people are taught how to work for money. Its also good to know how money can work for you. I would like to try my hand at a rental property.. first i need to learn about loans in more detail and about real estate.

i was soo looking forward to boarding today. 4" of new last night. greg said he got only 3 hours of sleep last night and couldnt make it. Im grading finals today. 2 down, 19 to go. I put a note on the bulletinboard in the hallway asking 'rebecca' on the 5th floor to call me. i wonder if she'll see it.

my jog today was just nothing! I couldnt keep moving for more than half a lap. Im glad i went outside though. From Rich Dad, Poor Dad: Loosers are defeated by failure. Winners are inspired by failure. Got my first homegrocer delivery today. that was fun. i think i will be using them again in the future. I have to write out the class plan for tomorrow's class. Then we'll have the final on Wednesday and thats it for my teaching career. yea. it was everything i wanted it to be.

whoho. im working away on tonight's class. its 1pm already and im not finished. so much for working on the job i get _paid_ for. well its almost over. i think saturday's class will be fun. it looks good for me making it to meadows in time to night ski.

hey ive got my livejournal software back. im leaving for class soon. just two more weeks until the final. i have not been paid by datalex for November yet. I hope they decide to pay me. and soon. the kitties are super. i have a hard time imaging my apartment without the cats in them and they've only been here a month and a half. I went to the pioneer sq for new years. Im glad I missed the window bashing and the arrests. well more later

ug. AMD hit a new low today and I sold. Only to see it rebound immeadiately afterwards. Plus my 'honeypot' is lower than my own personal 'get-out' limit. So I have to take my ball and go home. For now! :)

whoho. it snowed. snowed most of the afternoon. even school was closed! I rather wish it hadn't been closed because we were going to try Win2K today now that we had this big block. I went to ringler's by myself for dinner. it was pretty good. once it got to be evening, i needed to get out of the house.

the x-files are on the 'FX' network every night at midnight! way cool! the old episodes are SO much better than the current ones. Its more soap-opera like. The scully-mulder relationship has a fun forbidden-romance edge.